C'est La Vie ♥

Hello, 2012.

2012-01-17T13:45:00.001+08:00

Things have changed so much within the past few months. I'm so worn out; the fine lines under my eyes are more prominent than ever. Just around the same time last year, I was having the time of my life. No worries, no responsibility. It was just me and my girlfriends, enjoying the nights away. Now things have changed. I can feel the weight of the responsibility on my shoulders, the pressure building slowly.

I'm so exhausted, I don't think even the term 'exhaustion' fully encompasses how I feel. I know it'll all pay off in the end, so I'm trying to look forward to the future that lies ahead. I've been falling ill a lot recently, and it's pretty depressing. The doctors seem to be clueless on what is wrong with me. Brilliant, isn't it? I now have blue-black marks on my arms, and my veins seem to have turned black, after all the tests, intravenous antibiotics and nights in hospital. Nightmare, I tell you.

On to other things. A few months before, I finally decided to forgive a certain someone in my life, for all the things he put me through. It's a big deal, considering the fact that I had ignored him completely the first time he contacted me in the mid of last year. I've grown strong as a person and I'm no more the soft-hearted girl that people once knew me to be.

I know what I want and what I need. I have my future planned, and no matter what the obstacles are, I will move forward to my goal. There are, of course, many more things to learn, many issues that need to be addressed.

I don't regret forgiving the boy because for the first time, he proved that he truly has changed. It's been almost 6 months now and he has been nothing but supportive, and caring. I have to say the tables had turned, and I was making more mistakes than ever. I've done quite a few things I'm not proud of. But he would always be there, even if it meant turning up at a random place at 3am in the morning to look for me just to make sure I'm safe. Or even getting screwed up by a bunch of idiots because of me, just to protect me. Hurt him many times but he never gave up on me, and because of him, I've changed for the better. It's really sweet of him, and I'm glad to have him back.

My friends have been great; my family has been supportive of me. Studying and working at the same time is a complete nightmare. I truly admire the others who have gotten the hang of it. Sleepless nights, the constant worrying, the dark eyed circles that seem to be deeply etched in my skin.. I'd rather not even think about it. My illness seems to have gotten the best of me, I'm so far behind in school now and it's really depressing me. I no longer have time for myself.

Well it doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you do not stop. Right? So I'll take things day by day, and I hope to be back on track in time. I just pray to get better soon. I'm going to start reading to pass my time now. I finally had the time to update since I'm on medical leave today.

Bad lighting, and two very tired people. (Look at those eye bags!)

Love, me :)

How?

2011-08-31T16:55:00.000+08:00

How do you forgive someone who has hurt you more than anyone ever had? How do you forget all the pain they put you through, all the memories, all the tears? How do you feel comfortable around them and the people involved with hurting you, all over again? How many times can you forgive someone for hurting you in the most unforgivable ways? How stupid can one be to forgive someone and give them yet another chance, when they've already done so many times and got their heart broken? How many times does the person need to get slapped on the face till they actually learn not to be so stupid and give out more chances? How much more can a person take? How do you get over the insecurities that grew over the years because of the person's insults and actions? And how do you know whether the person has finally changed, or even has the capability to change?

Time will tell?

Seriously, just fuck my life.
I am too soft-hearted.

Life is beautiful ♥

2011-07-22T02:59:00.000+08:00

It's been forever since I blogged. It feels weird, being here again. I do kind of miss penning out my thoughts. :) I guess I've been too busy enjoying my life away, and trying to balance out work as well. As usual, that never really works out properly for me :P

They say there's always a rainbow after a storm and I'm glad to have made it through the hard times. Things are not exactly easy right now, there's always that tiny little imperfections you'd wish to iron out. But I can proudly say that I'm enjoying my life to the fullest. Looking back, I don't know how I even lived my life previously. Ever had that feeling that you finally woke up to life after many years of being asleep? I feel like I had never faced the world before this. I guess you can say things change, situations change, people change, for better or for worse. Used to be the girl who always rushed home for curfews and now I hardly even come home. Nightlife and friends seem to have taken up most of my time and it's pretty difficult trying to balance it with work, family and planning the future. Working the bar in a club opened up my eyes quite alot, met many interesting people and got closer to my friends and sister more than ever. It's been super fun and difficult at the same time. I think we've all gotten carried away with our late nights, outings, stayover at different places, partying etc. Making new friends in that workplace has made me develop habits I shall not speak of. *ahem* *coughs* It's really difficult when you're having too much fun.

Finally, I've been being more responsible and planning out my career and studies. Working at NUS high school as a lab technologist, it feels kind of weird to be back to the sciences again but damn I miss it! It's all working out perfectly. Things happen for a reason I believe, and I believe all are just blessings in disguise :)

I would prefer pictures to speak for itself but unfortunately some asshole has stolen my Iphone (I know who you are cheapskate). Did I mention that my life is one huge drama/movie? I could laugh. I have nothing more I feel like writing so I shall take my leave and head off to bed.

XO

2011-05-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

You know that feeling? The lousy feeling you get when you're just standing there among the bustling crowd. You're watching everyone go on with their own lives, but you're just standing there feeling helpless on what to do. The feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when you think of something you've been trying not to think about, the queasy feeling that makes you feel faint. The thoughts just keep coming, the memories keep flashing in your mind making you want to crumble and breakdown. When you feel helpless because you've been trying to stay strong for so long, that it just builds up till you feel like just screaming. Even then, it feels like your screams will never be heard. You feel like tearing your hair out of frustration, you've been trying your very best to move forward. You feel like you're alone even when you're surrounded by your loved ones.

Note to self

2011-05-05T16:57:00.003+08:00

1) Stop bottling things up. Tell people how you feel when they hurt you, stop bending backwards just to please everyone. When you bottle things up = you tend to blow up later on and hurt people. And the worst part, they didn't even know it was coming since you've been acting indifferent all along.

2) Stop being too honest. Some things are not meant to be said, because it hurts other's feelings and doesn't improve on the situation. Especially when you bottle things up and blow up later (back to pt 1)

3) Stop caring about what people think. If they have so much time to judge you and your actions when you haven't offended them in any way, it just shows how much time they have on their hands. And as the saying goes, don't point your fingers when your hands ain't clean? It applies well here since half of them are going nowhere in life/drunkards/hold horrible reputations/jerks. (Yes, this is a direct stab at you hypocritical, two-faced jerks )

4) Don't put up with people who treat you like shit. Friends, lovers, family.. whoever. Please take the exit because I'm sick and tired of being stepped on and being taken advantage of.

5) Don't speak when you're angry.

6) Stop being an emotional eater.

7) Learn to keep a balance between friends and family

8) Stop exiting into your dream world when things get hard and start focusing on reality

9) Let go of past mistakes, past hurt and pain, because it hurts you more when you hold on to it.

10) Listen more, speak less.

11) Increase your attention span, especially when it comes to your WORK.

12) Be more open to changes.

13) Stop being so overprotective of loved ones, some need to learn on their own.

14) What's meant to be, will happen in time. Don't fret over it, build on your own life and when it comes around, you'll be ready for it.

15) Stop taking light things so seriously, stop taking serious things so lightly

16) Stop procastinating

17) Start working towards goals more seriously. No halfways!

18) You can't tame fire with fire. Only love.

19) Stop giving people many chances when they never change to treat you right. Focus on the ones who love you.

20) Stop letting your pride get in the way of things.

21) Be yourself.

21 this year, so I shall action and make 21 notes :P hehehe

2011-05-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

I'm slowly picking up the pieces and putting it back together, and I see that things are slowly falling into place. Life has not been this peaceful for very long thus I am truly enjoying the serenity. I have not been having this much fun for years! Late night rides, our trips to scary places, the frightening experiences, the people we've met up, old and new, our ladies' nights, our bowling and pool nights, our beach outings and times when we just sit and talk the days away. Friends, family, extended family, old acquaintainces.. memories to be cherished.

Spending time with family, and alot of talks wth my dear mother really helps. She has such a beautiful way of putting things and making things clearer for me. Mothers always have the healing touch. :) I've never been close to her in my life, and this is the first time I'm really getting to know the true meaning of a mother. I'm really happy about it. I hope this lasts :)

They say that you are your own worst critic, and I think my own thoughts are killing me slowly. I try to keep myself occupied but sometimes I tend to just daze off into space. It makes me wonder, at times, whether I did the right thing. But I try not to second-doubt what I do, because I believe that at one point it meant alot to me :)

Would you admit the truth? If you know that dear friendships were on the line? When you know you could lose some people forever? When you know you could get away with it if you don't utter a word and have the life you wanted? Not many would, but I did. And I wasn't asked to do it, I did it on my own accord. Food for thought.

There are still many things yet to be fixed. One example of that would be that obnoxious, pompous ass that I wish I could murder. The same one that I have cursed too many times. Things are not going to get better till the day comes when we can be rid of that person. It's going to be years till we get to do that, so for now I can only vent my feelings as I watch all the misdeeds take place before my eyes. It is truly hurting, to see my loved ones get hurt. And it is even more hurting to think that at one point of my life, this person was there for me. Only to realize now that this person was too busy talking behind our backs all this while. And all the things that was done to me.. unforgiveable. I've ranted too many times about this person, and that is the only thing that keeps me sane. I'm surprised that all of us are still sane. But we all have scars that can't be healed. But we're not going to give up the fight, cause we'll always be united :)

Moving on to other things.

I'm very confused on many things. I know what I want, I'm just having trouble on what I should do first and when to start on it. Singapore has very limited resources; I wish I could leave the country. To Australia <3 The place I've been dreaming of moving to since I was 16.

Before the big dreams come on, I do have some things on my to-do list. :P
1) Master bowling & playing pool
2) Learn how to cook indian food
3) Eat healthier and exercise - to lose 4kg (Vainpot much?!)
4) Take my driver's license
5) Learn french
6) Get over my fear of balls (most retarded fear on earth)
7) Study hard when school starts
8) Be closer to my family

I'm already on my way on most of it! Let's see how it goes!
Many events coming up soon, can't wait!
Life is short, might as well enjoy it while it lasts ;)

Till then.

2011-04-21T21:36:00.014+08:00

Dear god, I can't go on like this anymore. Why did it have to be this way? Why was I so fucking stupid? Why???????????

Why did I bother sacrificing so much for a guy who couldn't do the same or even near to that for me?
One who fucking wouldn't even bother contacting me or asking me out?
One who lied, and lied, and lied, and never realized lies are what hurt me the most.. Not even cheating. One who gave me so much insecurities and made me feel like as if I'm not good enough?

WHY did I bother taking time to understand him when he didn't even bother the same with me?
Why did I even bother contacting him everyday, msging or even asking him out for so many months when he DIDN'T and never seemed to bother?
Why did I bother sticking with him when he did bad things in the past, when he could just throw me away when things got hard?

I can't do this. I never want to be in a relationship again. How am I ever to be the same? I don't want more heartbreaks. This is a permanent scar that will never heal.

Dear karma, do you really exist?

I might not be perfect but noone deserves to be treated this way! :'(

So thank you for the broken heart

2011-04-21T15:24:00.003+08:00

Everything I know about love
I learned from you, from you
And everything I know about pain
I learned from you, you

You were my only, you were my first
You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar, oh
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

I still remember when you called
And said that she didn’t mean anything
How could you expect me to look at you
The same way

You were my only but not my last
You showed me lonely, and you made me put you in the past
But the most important thing you ever gave me
Was the one that hurt the most

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah
And thank you for the permanent scar, oh
'Cause if it wasn’t for you, I might forget
How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start
So thank you for the broken heart

And every time I find myself alone in pieces
I find myself
I’ll just remember when you hurt me and I made it

So thank you for the broken heart
And thank you for the permanent scar
Cause if it wasn’t for you, I wouldn’t be here
With the love of my life, all my pain disappear
I’ve come so far
So thank you for the broken heart

I thank you, I thank you
For the broken heart
Oh yeah oh, for the broken heart

I'll never have a broken heart again

And I'm okay

2011-04-15T00:03:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there

Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK

2011-04-11T00:34:00.004+08:00

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel

Comes out just when you need it to

As I paced back and forth all this time

Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on

Stupid girl, I should have known

I should have known

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale

I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet

Lead her up the stairwell

This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town

I was a dreamer before you went and let me down

Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes

And never really had a chance

I had so many dreams about you and me

Happy endings, now I know

Lies

2011-04-10T01:12:00.004+08:00

One who speaks a lie hurts. Only truth gives life and peace. A lie always hurts. Even the smallest lie hurts. It hurts the one to whom the lie has been spoken, and surely the person who speaks the lie. In today's world lies are taken as way of life. Those who speak lies, bury morality so deep down somewhere, that no one can find it. These people with black hearts speak lies and sometimes they lie to the extent that it kills the one who believes them.

Speaking a lie is betraying trust. To speak a falsehood to one who believes that truth is being spoken, is sinful. Society may not punish liars, but there is the law of karma, that punishes the liar. But what of the pain that a liar gives to one who trusted her/him?

Lies come in many types. Let us first try to find out about what kinds of liars are there on this earth. The first type is a small liar. A poor person, who speaks lies to survive in this brutal world. On the other end, we have liars who rule the nations. For their own power, they invent all kinds of lies and mislead people to believe the untruth.
The worst liars are those who lie to someone who has total trust in her/him. A child always takes the word of mother or father as the truth. The child has total trust in the words and takes them as the gospel truth. But as the child grows up, he/she realizes that his/her parent speak lies whenever they find it convenient. The child gets trained at this stage of life. Though the child learns about speaking truth in the text books, what he/she finds in the reality of role models, is different. And that reality is followed. This habit of speaking lies perpetuates in this fashion.

One more type of liar is the lover. Love depends on trust and nothing but total trust. When a lover speaks lies, that not only breaks the trust, but it also kills the hearts. It kills the man/woman to whom the lie is spoken. These lovers are smooth liars. They think that by speaking lies they will save the love, but they manage to destroy not only the love , but also their beloved. They poison the life of their beloved with lies and are nothing short of murderers and killers.

As I said before, society may not punish such liars, because society is not concerned with the depth of such relationships. But what of Karma, as the Indian philosophy calls it? That leaves no one. Only the law of karma gives the punishment to the liar. The liar gets punished by the law of karma. Who will save the person who trusted the liar? Only the mercy of god can save such a battered person.

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2011-04-04T01:02:00.001+08:00

And suddenly, I am okay.

:))

2011-04-03T20:54:00.001+08:00

What does this mean really?
What does everything really mean?

I feel like there's two different sides of me raring to come out. I hope I'm taking the right path. I need to balance everything out, get my thoughts ironed out, before I go insane.

Signs of guy trouble

2011-04-02T23:49:00.004+08:00

1) He No Longer Considers Your Feelings

You have a bad day (and it’s written on your face) and he doesn’t ask you about it. You have a headache and he doesn’t offer you an aspirin. If you are in pain, whether physical or mental, and your man says or does nothing…that’s someone who doesn’t care about you.

2) You hardly see him

When you’re with someone, they should be there. If you are in a long distance relationship, that’s one thing. If your man lives across town but you hardly ever see him…that’s a sure clue that he’s just not into you anymore.

3) He’s distant

You used to know your man inside and out but now you don’t know what’s going on in his life. For all you know he’s changed jobs, his name, his hair-color, his sexual orientation. You can’t be in a relationship if you don’t even know the person you’re in a relationship with.

4) He Doesn’t Tell You About Important Things
This one ties into number five. You may still tell your man things but he doesn’t tell you things.

5) You’re Very Unhappy
You can’t expect that every day in a relationship is going to be sunshine and lollipops. However, if everyday feels like slow torture and you just want to curl up into a ball and cry…that’s not a good thing. You could be depressed but if you feel this way because of the one your with…you don’t need a therapist to tell you that breaking up may make you loads happier.

My one year of waiting for change and going through these things everyday just because I was told that I was loved. When you love someone, you show it. Not ask them to wait around.

Noone knows the amount of pain I harbor in my heart. Gosh, the pain. I already have so much going on.

I am damaged. Damaged beyond repair. I feel like a toy that was used till it was worn out, and thrown in the trash.

God, save me now because I feel like I'm dying everyday. It takes me so much effort just to keep my head above the water. So much effort. To save myself from drowning. I'm supposed to be the 'eternally optimistic' type but there's only this much a girl can handle..

Reminiscing the past

2011-03-27T17:36:00.005+08:00

I grew up in a broken family. No, my parents never acted like parents. We were all like a big group of children fighting. I had no guidance from them, I had to look for my aunt and uncle for comfort. People care for their parents and do things for them and I never understood why? Maybe because my life was the opposite? Physically abused as a kid can cause alot of damage and taints the way you see people. Alchoholic parent, the other emotionally unstable, abusive maids, family, neighbours, teachers..

I don't know how to express myself, I don't know how to act like a daughter, or a person even, I had to guess what my morals should be, I had to guess how to be social with people. And most of the time when I meet new people I only feel like running away, see that's what I used to do when I was child. Run into my room and hide. The urge is so strong and it never goes away. Always thinking everyone is going to hurt me or hit me, cause at one point, everyone did exactly that.

The racism in Singapore might be hidden under the folds but that doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Back then, those who did it might think these insults won't hurt a person, but really, having enough problems at home.. you'd think you can escape from it in school or atleast with friends! I remember all the pain I had to go through, it got so bad, I resorted to many things that I don't wanna mention. I hated people, in general. Because it seemed like everyone hated me. Depressing. Everyone in my family seemed to be going through depression. From fights to screams to knives to suicide. It never seemed to end. Oh the pain.

People never seem to understand how the past can affect a person growing up. You take them by face value when you meet them, have these expectations for them and you don't seem to realize not all live up to it. I hate that. But we all do it don't we? I am a very awkward person. Wary, if you would say. And I don't know why everyone takes in the wrong way.

When I see people who I feel don't want me around, who don't talk to me properly, or I feel don't include me much because they're close to each other, I get nervous and awkward. Scared even.
I shut off completely, go into my safe little shell. Not because I don't like them, but because I'm afraid I'd make them not like me more. I've had enough of negativity in the past. And then they'll take it the wrong way, they think I'm being anti-social, stuck up or plain arrogant.

For me to open up, I need time and reassurance. I close up the moment I feel someone doesn't like me. What do you expect from a girl who had to grow up with people jeering at her, throwing things at her, abusing her? Oh nooo, it's always the face value.

"Oh, you look like those bimbotic kind, spoilt type of girl"
"You look like the type with alot of guys friends, flirt, and club alot"
"You look like those attention-seeking/loud/noisy type"

This is what I've been getting throughout poly, when meeting different people. I hate this to the max. And when they see me acting differently from what they perceived me to be by face value, I'm considered arrogant. Maybe I'm just quiet? Ever thought of that? Why hate someone because of it?

Why pick on my flaws for nothing?

It's so hurting. You meet people, you talk, they don't talk back much to you so you keep quiet. You keep quiet and they don't like it. They talk behind your back about it. You try to fit in, you can't. You can never win.

None of these people seem to understand how it feels. See the kid in the above picture? That was me when I was a kid. Far worse than that, really. And people come around saying things because I'm different? I go back to the same state as above picture. In my own quiet world where I can just shut off and be by myself. A vicious cycle it is. I've tried being nice, sucking up even, fighting back too.. since being nice didn't work, and now? I've just given up.

I just feel like running away sometimes. I need to. Before everything just crushes me completely cause I'm sick and tired of carrying this weight on my shoulders.

This time, I'm just going to hide away in my own world. It was easier when I was a kid, it's just as easy now.

Eat, pray, love

2011-03-27T01:21:00.001+08:00

1. Life’s metaphors are God’s instructions.
2. You have just climbed up and above the roof. There is nothing between you and the Infinite. Now, let go.
3. The day is ending. It’s time for something that was beautiful to turn into something else that is beautiful. Now, let go.
4. Your wish for resolution was a prayer. Your being here is God’s response. Let go, and watch the stars come out—on the outside and on the inside.
5. With all your heart, ask for grace, and let go.
6. With all your heart, forgive him, FORGIVE YOURSELF and let it go.
7. Let your intention be freedom from useless suffering. Then, let go.
8. Watch the heat of day pass into the cool night. Let go.
9. When the karma of a relationship is done, only love remains. It’s safe; let go.
10. When the past has passed from you at last, let go. Then climb down and begin the rest of your life. With great joy.

Let go.

2011-03-27T01:14:00.001+08:00

Dear god,

I hate having to see people I love continuously go through pain and hurt when they've already gone through more than they can handle. I hate having to see that horrible person getting away with the misdeeds; I hate watching that person talking behind about our backs, manipulating us and getting away with it. I hate watching that person say and do mean things to people who love and care for that person. I hate having to see their lives wasting away because of that certain person who can't keep quiet and make peace.

You fucking fat whore, I hate you, and I might've said this a million times here but I'll say it again;
You reap what you sow and one day all the karma for all the lies and manipulation will come and hit you a thousand fold.
You think we don't know what you're saying or doing but we do; and we're not stupid.
We're just waiting for the right time to get back at you.

For all the pain and trauma you've cause every single one of us.

I hate having to see the people I love the most cry.

2011-03-26T15:46:00.002+08:00

FUCKING INGRATE. RAN BACK TELLING ME SORRY EVEN WHEN YOU LIKED OTHER GIRLS AND I ACCEPTED YOU _|_

I'LL NEVER STOP HATING YOU FOR THIS

2011-03-26T15:44:00.002+08:00

Fuck you.
FUCK you for everything you did to me.
For everything I've done for you.
For all the times you told me you didn't mean what you did, what you said.
For saying all the shit that you said
For all the times I forgave you

Cause I'm here picking up all the broken pieces of me you left
And you're so happy having fun with someone else

What happened to all the stupid excuses?
"OH I'M NOT INTERESTED IN A RELATIONSHIP"
and shit.
All your lies
I HATE YOU SO MUCH.

I look at my past archives. And ALL THE CRAP you put me through.
And now knowing it wasn't worth it?
Gosh Ammala where was your brains? Where was your stupid brains?
How could you have not realized earlier?
Blinded by love? WHAT kind of love was this?!
Come to think of it, you said you were sure you wanted ME.
FUNNY HOW YOU SAID ALL THESE THINGS AND IN THE END WALKED AWAY.
I NEVER PROMISED YOU ANYTHING BUT I HELD ON TILL THE VERY END.

I GAVE YOU EVERY SINGLE PIECE OF ME ONLY TO HAVE MYSELF TRAMPLED ON SO FUCKING MANY TIMES _|_

I hope you die.

IF THERE IS SUCH THING AS KARMA, I HOPE TO SEE IT HAPPEN SOON
Cause I swear, I can't take this anymore!

I'm not giving up

2011-03-26T12:57:00.001+08:00

At one point of time, I had everything I wanted. Everything I needed. I had worked hard for it and it's noone else's fault but mine for letting it all slip away. One day, I'll be back there again. You have to go through the good and bad days as good days give you joy.. and bad days give you experience, right? :)

I'm not giving up.
& I'll take things day by day till I get there.

To all the assholes

2011-03-26T12:13:00.002+08:00

Before you start putting me down or assuming things about me, don't forget that you guys aren't any better.

If you guys can go around saying things about me based on what others say, I can do the same thing about all of you and it'll be 100 times worse.

Next time you point a finger, I'll point you to the mirror.

2011-03-25T23:21:00.003+08:00

I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothin
You're the one I want and I'm a continue lovin
Cause your considered wifey and I'm considered husband
And I'm a always be there for you
And either way you look at it I ain't goin no where for my muffin
Cause she gonna hold it down, cant no body tell her nothin
You got the kind of love that always make a better fussin
And that's what gets me closer to you

And no one knows
Why I'm into you
Cause they'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes
And no one know, the things we've been through
Can never measure up to half of what I put you through
That's why we'll break through

And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

Seems like every day that go by things are gettin harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes
All about knowing you I'm into doing things to keep you longer
Stickin together forever, watch it grow stronger
That's the way it has to be, everything proper
Keepin it always true

And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one I can compare you to
And I know that you will never walk away from me no matter what
And that's why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know

And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

So tell me baby, what do I have to lose?

2011-03-25T17:34:00.009+08:00

According to you, I'm too stubborn

According to you, I don't open up enough to you

According to you, It was a mistake that I didn't introduce you to my parents;

Not that it was because you never gave me security in our relationship

According to you, I don't seem to deserve chances when I made mistakes.

According to you, it seems like I'll never be good enough.

According to me, it's okay you lied, make many mistakes, liked another.

According to me, you deserved as many chances you ever asked for.

According to me, it's okay that I had to wait for almost two years for you to commit to me.

According to me, it was okay that you put me down for being who I am.

According to me, it's okay that you get carried away and seem to forget my existence.

According to me, it's okay you get moody easily, to me it's cute.

According to me, you're just as stubborn but I loved you anyways.

Funny how all I ever asked for is for you to call, or ask me out once in awhile.. and things ended up like this.

My mistake for thinking you bothered about me.

My mistake for not realizing that this love was 1-sided.

Afterall if you love someone, you accept them for who they are don't you?

My mistake for thinking this will last.

My mistake for not leaving you for good in November when I broke up with you, realizing you will never change.

Now I'm here picking up the pieces of what's left of me while you're enjoying your life with someone else.

My mistake for thinking you deserved me because you don't, never did, and never will.

I have nothing to lose. And maybe that's what hurts.

Knowing that it was only too easy to walk away.

Others might think I'm the bitch. And it makes me laugh.

I never lied. I never went behind his back. I stayed faithful and I am proud of it.

I make mistakes, I have my flaws, and that makes me human.

Think whatever you want of me, because really, who gives a shit about what you think?

BEFORE YOU POINT YOUR FINGERS, LOOK AT YOUR OWN RETARDED REFLECTIONS ASSHOLES. Are you guys going to say you deserve to judge me?

PS: If there is such thing as karma, goodddddd luckkkkk!

2011-03-24T22:13:00.003+08:00

I think I'll be posting here sometimes.
Tumblr ain't so great when you wanna blog with pictures and stuff.

But I still love Tumblr! (:

Okay bye.

-EDIT-

Oh wow.
I managed to find all my old blogposts dated all the way to 2007, when I first started my blog!

And I found a LOT of things that enlightened me, made me tear even.. sigh.
Memories of the past. Friends, family, loved ones.. :'(

I miss that person, that certain guy, and how he used to be.
Feelings change (not people) and it causes break ups, and you can't do anything about it but learn from it.

But in the end, my blog archive made me realize so many things;
I understand why things ended up the way it did.

& I know everything that had happened made me into the person I am today,
So I won't regret it.

I will blog more soon :D
My tumblr will be just for reblogging and this shall be my personal blog. :)

MOVED

2010-07-05T14:01:00.002+08:00

http://a-sundaykindoflove.tumblr.com/

Moved

2010-07-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

I will remember you

2010-06-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?

I let them slip away from us when things got bad

How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun

Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep

Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep

It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose

Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose

Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night

You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you

Will you remember me?

Don’t let your life pass you by

Weep not for the memories

Weep not for the memories

Always & Forever

2010-06-13T19:37:00.005+08:00

If he misses you, he’ll call just to hear your voice. If he wants you, he’ll say it. And if he cares, he’ll show it. If he has a thought about you, it will come out of his mouth. If you are on his mind non-stop, he will do anything he can just to see you. If he truly likes you, he won’t let anything get in the way and fight back just… to keep you in his arms. If not, he can’t be worth your time because you’re obviously not worth his.

Current blog song

2010-06-03T16:21:00.009+08:00

Inspirational ♥

Dreams are just dreams

When they're stuck inside your head

And all it takes is a little help from you

You know it's true

That dreams are for real

When you see what I see

And you feel it too

We took the longest road

Just to make it harder

Let's do it all again

It only makes us stronger

[Chorus:]

Dreams

I guess we're just made of dream

Nothin' else matters

As long as we believe

I'm lookin' at you

And I see my life

Passing before my eyes

And when the journey's over

And all my dreams come true

I'll dream of you

What do you see

When you look inside your heart

A little thought

Can walk a thousand miles

And change your life

When dreams lead the way

The impossible is suddenly in sight

Every step you take

Just brings it all together

You gotta keep the faith

When all seems lost forever

[Chorus]

You're the one

That keeps my hope alive

My vision clear

I'll spend my life with you

Conquer fear

We'll make it through

Nothin' else matters

As long as we believe

I'm lookin' at you

And I see my life

Passing before my eyes

And when the journey's over

And all my dreams come true

I'll dream of you

I miss you Bf :(

2010-06-02T22:27:00.003+08:00

Current mood: Sad.

I miss Em. So he won't be coming out for two weeks. I'm just looking at the fact that after 4 more weeks, it's over. I had a reeeeeeally good time with him last weekend. After so long, we want to town and had a hell lot of fun. :)) He's like a child now, so lost and confused. Tekong is his new home, he's forgotten how to make his way around singapore. ;P We were stumped on how to navigate around Orchard. Was fun to watch him so blur and confused. ;D Ate at Kenny Rogers. I'm sure I'm putting on weight! :(

I miss hanging out with these people. So freakin' hard to catch nowadays! Karlpana has exams, Renu is leaving for perth, Nana is always working.. But it's fun when we do meet up. We dined at Gelare. I and Nana had pasta. Pasta at Gelare?! Weird right? But it was okay. We understood exactly why it's only famous for it's cakes and ice cream. Haha!

Met up this wonderful group of people. I miss them and our times in IME. We are always the loudest wherever we go, we pretty much brought down the restaurant with our laughter. Had a great time!

Eating, eating & eating. After sometime, I realize I'm a social eater. The first thing that pops up into my mind when meeting people is having dinner or lunch with them. -_-

I'm lazy to blog now.

Abrupt ending, bye!

2010-05-30T22:23:00.009+08:00

They don't seem to understand how much pressure they are putting on me.

Kids are cute. Sure, there is the pampers-changing duties, the incessant cries, the petty behaviour, and the everlasting energy they seem to have packed into their tiny little bodies..

It's the time when you discipline them, teach them, and show them how to behave. And when you neglect all of these necessities, it just gets difficult to deal as they grow older. I didn't mind. Taking care of that teeny little baby brother of mine was fun. But NOW, it's just mentally taxing. I learnt from my parents exactly how NOT to bring up a boy. -_-

Can someone save me from this pain I have to go through?! I miss that little boy that used to run around crying/smiling. Now he's gone way too far and over the line and I absolutely abhor having to be the bad sister and take his fun away. His parents-teacher conference is one of the worst I've ever been to, and to think I thought I've had it bad! I felt like strangling him infront of his teacher. I don't mind, I love my family

But to people who don't matter to me. Why is that I am the one having to manage everything? I have many issues in my life I have to deal with, but according to all of you, I am to be held responsible for many other lives as well. And why is that, may I ask? When something goes wrong, I HAVE to jump in and salvage the situation like it's of utmost importance to me. And if it ends badly, everyone comes asking me for the reasons, like I had something to do with it. Treat me like an adult when they need help, treat me like a child when I'm not needed after that. Talk to me like I'm brainless when I know more than everything they'll ever have to say to me. And all I can do is sit and smile as you belittle me and my family.

Screw you people.

Just wait for the day I am not obligated to be nice to all of you.

2010-05-25T19:47:00.002+08:00

I miss those times when we could hang out more often. And the more I notice the other, I realize that we have something really good going on. One more month. Lucky girl I am. I don't have any new pictures yet since it's in another person's camera.

The place outside my house is a massive jungle. With all the trees, shade, and greenery, you'd think it'd be MUCH COOLER. RAHHHH! Global warming!

Dad has been thinking of moving. This really sucks for me since I'm just starting to love this house, and my room. I don't want to go :(

I'm really confused about many things. He wants me to go with him to US. What am I supposed to do? Go with him and study there..and leave my family for years? Or stay and stud here.. and not see him for years?

Hope we can work this out.
I'm going mad thinking.

2010-05-25T14:32:00.002+08:00

People Who Put You Down Are Hurt Themselves
The first thing to know is that a happy, self confident, person does not put others down. They might provide constructive criticism but they won’t put others down. This tells you a lot about the person who criticizes you. Some people are very negative about others because:

- they need to make themselves feel like they're in control or more powerful or to cover up their own insecurities

- they’ve experienced a trauma of their own in the past and they don’t know how to deal with the pain so they'll hurt others as a defense mechanism.

People’s tirades against you will probably reveal to you just how unhappy and disillusioned and frustrated that person is with life, and that's their problem, not yours. Knowing this can go a long way to being able to detach from the comments. If you know it has more to do with the person making the comments than about you, it makes it far easier not feel hurt by what’s been said.

Emotionally detaching from a person like this can be hard to do but you need to refuse to become involved. That person wants you to feel badly about yourself. Don’t give them that power.

2010-05-23T23:54:00.005+08:00

It's really hard for me, not seeing him. NS takes up most of his time, I get so used to not seeing him anymore. And every time I do, it only gets harder to say goodbye. Not any easier. It's the last month of NS next month and I can't wait for it to be over. I do enjoy my days with my friends, family, and everyone else but it never feels the same. But I'm glad I have them around. =)

NS did bring in a great difference to our relationship. People who have gone through it would understand. I guess it's just a part of life all boys have to go through before turning into men ;) And honestly, it does change them a hell lot.

Why is the weather so hot nowadays? I feel like I can't breath. I want to go back to Perth and and just lie there soaking up it's awesome weather. It's a wonder how the summertime can make me tan so fast but make me shiver at the same time.

But ANYTHING is better than this. I think I can choke trying to take deep breaths. Gosh!

What's wrong with people nowadays?

2010-05-21T13:37:00.004+08:00

"Jailed for slapping corpse"

Link: Here

A MAN who strangled and slapped a corpse across the cheek at a funeral of his neighbour was jailed by a district court on Friday.

Muhamad-Ali Mahmod, 35, unemployed, is believed to be the first person to be convicted of offering indignity to a human corpse. He was given 14 weeks for the offence, which is punishable with up to three years and/or a fine, at Tampines on March 8.

He was jailed 16 weeks for stealing a $150 mobile phone from a polytechnic student at the Sports Complex of Temasek Polytechnic on Oct 23 last year, and 14 weeks for inhaling toluene on March 11.

The court heard that Muhamad-Ali's 72-year-old neighbour held some prayers at the funeral of his late son in the living room. At about 4pm, Muhamad-Ali entered the flat and strangled and slapped the corpse. A relative immediately told him to leave and he did so. The deceased's father felt insulted by the act.

District Judge Sarjit Singh ordered the theft and inhalant abuse sentences to run consecutively, making a total of 30 weeks. Muhamad-Ali has convictions for, among others, drug-related offences, theft of vehicle, carnal connection and misuse of intoxicating substances.

He told the court that he would seek his neighbour's forgiveness after his release, and that he did it while he was under the influence of inhalant.

Always, the excuse of being under the influence of something. Whether it's drugs, alcohol,..
They do absolutely ridiculous things like wife-beating, abusing their kids, rape, molest.

I don't understand why people stupidly subject themselves to be slaves to inanimate objects and then use that as reasons to do such horrible things. Does it make you proud?

Hits closer to home than anyone would think.

Thoughts

2010-05-21T00:55:00.003+08:00

To have had such positive influences in my life, such as my sithi, sithappa, saradha, nicky, sailu, my besties: boo and the rest, my friends, my family, I think I'm really lucky. Each one of them helped me through every part of my life and I've learnt many things from each and every one of them. And I hope that they know I'll always be there for them. Do you guys even know how much I love all of you?

I miss my Sithi. She is so beautiful, inside and out. I miss Saradha too, and she's just like her.
Come back soon okay? :)

One year since

2010-05-20T23:17:00.004+08:00

This song always reminds me of her.

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings, and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever
[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye
[Chorus]

Never. Ever.

2010-05-12T21:24:00.074+08:00

Weekdays tend to be boring.

Everyone is either working, studying or both.

Today was my first day of madness. I believe my mother is influencing me to become a clean freak like her, and I am cleaning the house like a mad woman. Way to go, mum -_-

But I enjoy my time with her.

What I like about my weekends is that my friends are all free to go out. But it gets difficult when everyone wants to go out on the same day!

Saturday morning+afternoon was spent going out with my besties ♥ ♥ ♥

We went to the pixar exhibition in the science centre. It was really fun, and the artwork was beautiful. Too bad we were not allowed to take photos! It was really nice. If only I could buy a few for my room ;D

And their short films, even the ones dating back to the 70s, were really good! It opened up our eyes to see how much hard work is put into making just one character in the fim.

I'm glad we get to spend more time together now, but it's been better. I miss Nicole, my other close friend and I hope she's doing fine. Next outing should be a more simple one I hope, I'm running out of cash! And I keep spending my money on all thos UFO plushie machines, seems like my best friend is addicted to it =P & She's got such good luck with it! She always leave the place with a handful of toys.

The evening was then spent with my lovely ladies, Nana, Nadia, Nabisha. The names are coincedentally alike!

We went to the Crazy Elephant bar at Clarke Quay to eat and drink.The waitress was one bitchy minah who couldn't stop staring at us or picking at us. Super irritating. Well I guess she has a reason to be moody, at her old age and she's working as a waitress? Pity. I wish girls would be nicer to each other instead of all this stupid competition on who is prettier or better. So saddening. Well my girlfriends looked absolutely gorgeous that day. Nabisha, you are growing into such a beautiful lady! Pictures never do justice. ;)

It might be kind of late but hey! We didn't get to celebrate it nicely but bought mummy a gorgeous Bonia bag. Dad seemed so jealous. Haha! I think I've been a very good daughter *ahem*. I always help my mother with everything she needs, and do her facials, foot massages, paint her nails, buy her stuff etc etc. I'm trying to make it up to her for all the times I wasn't there, plus, I don't see the point of treating her specially just on mother's day. Don't need a day to appreciate your loved ones right? ;)

I just wish some people would start seeing that and appreciating more.

If only you were still here. I want to call you and wish you Happy Mother's day because you are my mother, just as much as you always call me your daughter. I still remember how you'd say my name when you're angry with me, how you'd lecture me, I still remember your hugs, your soothing voice, your deep laughter.. Your favorite bubble teas, your favorite singing show which you'll always replay for me, your fantastic cooking, how I used to stay at your house for months when I was a child, how you'd bring all of us to the playground to play.. I remember all the stories you would tell me about the mischevious baby I was and how it was like taking care of me. If you were never around, I would've never been me. You brought me up, you're the mother I never had, and I'll never stop appreciating or missing you. Happy mother's day. :(

2010-05-09T15:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know why Christina needed to copy Lady Gaga's style for fame.

She is already such a big star. But I have to say, she is hottttttt in her video !

Gorgeous.

So I've been watching Charmed, from the first season. And damnn, they are soooooooooooo pretty! Even the calefares were so freaking gorgeous. I don't see such gorgeous girls on TV anymore. They are so beautiful.

I used to not like this girl, Shannen Doherty. She quit Charmed after a few seasons cause she couldn't get along with some people on the set. But after watching the first few seasons I realized she is a really really good actress and damn she's hot! Pictures doesn't do her justice. So prettyyyyyy!

But Holly Marie Combs is the best actress. When she cried for the scenes when her sister dies, wow, really really really amazing. Touching.

Okay enough of drooling.

The brilliance of Innocence

2010-05-06T17:43:00.008+08:00

Emily Koesters squirmed uncomfortably in her hospital bed at Nebraska Medical Center as her young classmate rallied to support her and her family through a number of serious illnesses.

The girl was often in pain, crying out “mama” in a sort of mantra to work through the ordeal that’s kept her sheltered for months. "It’s just something she has to do. It’s her way of coping", said Erin Koesters, mother of the 6-year-old.

In Emily’s hometown, Gretna, Neb., 5-year-old Peter Zwart carts a rickety red wagon full of brownies and garden vegetables through his neighborhood. It’s his after-school routine.

“I’m selling peppers and apples and butternut squash and brownies and apples,” the chatty, blond haired boy tells neighbors on his route.

He’s collected more than $340 so far, and it will help Emily’s family pay bills related to her treatment and care.

Why does he do it?

“Because I love her. She’s nice and she used to sit by me,” he said.

“It was just touching to see a little guy, on his own, decide, hey, I’m going to help a friend,” said Peter’s father, Dirk Zwart. Peter’s mom has been baking brownies for weeks to keep Peter in business.

“Really, we feel if a 5-year-old can walk down the street with a wagon and raise $500, it’s just inspiring to think about what a high schooler with a car or a grown up with a job could do,” said Lisa Zwart.The Koesters are touched by Peter’s giving spirit.

“Isn’t that the sweetest thing?” Erin said.

Credit:

Video: Peter Zwart's Mission

http://www.ketv.com/news/21421823/detail.html

baby!

2010-05-05T20:18:00.001+08:00

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

If I have a baby, I want it to be as animated as this!
SO CUTE & SMART!

2010-05-05T13:54:00.001+08:00

Target: 44kg.

Love says not to 43kg and is okay with 44kg -_- wth, one kg difference!

Well, how can I be so freaking near to it yet feel so far away?!

Barely a day goes by without me thinking and wondering.

It's going to be a year soon.

Yet it feels like yesterday,

I can recount every single little thing that happened that day and it hurts.

Trauma.

I want her back now.

Now now now!

2010-05-04T15:31:00.006+08:00

Friday

& I finally met the twins after so long, and it was so good to hug them tight and do our little dance together. hee ;D

I had so much fun chatting, I spent the night there and watched twilight in the morning. They were giggling so hard hearing the lame cheesy lines in some of the scenes. I hope the new movie coming out on June/July would be better.

And I love their cute kitties :D

Cuteee rightt! I have an allergy to cats, but I still can't help squeezing them to bits. I miss them, I can't wait for their exams to be over. Soon !!!! :D

Saturday afternoon I met Em!

We went to eat at some unknown place called Pasta Stylo. Weird name but we gaped when we saw the interior. Very glamorous, but the bad quality pictures does it no justice. The food was so-so though. But their drinks are nice!

Next time I'm going to bring a nice cam witme to take better quality pictures! >:(

Went shopping and love forced me to get a GUESS wallet I always wanted. He wanted to pay but I have a very big ego, so I paid myself ;P Had a great time with him, can't wait for next week!

Sunday

was spent with my favorite people from IME. ;D Some couldn't make it so it ended up with 5 of us, 2 girls and 3 guys. First thing they said when they saw me?

"Eh, today you don't look like minah"

I missed that line ;P

Ate at Pasta Waraku and their food is good, scenery nice too. Later dropped by Brewerks and for the first time after so long, I watched soccer.

Me & Soccer?!

But it was fun really. I had my Margarita, and it seems like their food is good too. Well liverpool lost so not all of them were in the mood to take pictures. ;P Maybe in the next outing?

Weekdays are usually quite monotonous, I spend my time helping mummy and spending time with her. And I really do like spending time with her.

I need to rush now and get out! Meeting Nanabanana to go shopping and also get a mother's day gift!

Love!

2010-04-29T14:39:00.006+08:00

I hardly go out with my family since they're always too busy but it's fun when these rare moments happen ;D One thing I've learned is that none of them changed.

Dad still likes to take cab everywhere as he hates public transport.

Brother eats like a pig.

Mum loves to buy pots and pans, and she is so picky with her food!

My sister never joined us, too busy with work + school. Reminds me of me last time. =/

Daddy and he candid funny face ;D

Mummy looks like a ghost. A cute one of course!

Glutton of the year!
He beat me to the title fair and square.
heh heh.

And going out shopping with dad and bro is crazy. My dad drag me throughout Metro forcing me to buy clothes. I spent only $200 and my brother, LITTLE brother, spends more than 3 times as much on himself. I thought girls are the ones who shop like crazy?! I am not cut out to be a girl :'(

But I was nice okay, I bought stuff for my mum and sister too. He bought only for himself D:

Well, he's young.

I look like I'm doing some serious exam when I was merely opening the hershey's ice cream box. hahaha!

I look like an idiot but he looks cute ;D
Just a few more months and it's over. Lucky not two years!

2010-04-28T17:48:00.028+08:00

I miss you. I miss how you'd pop by once awhile. I miss your little antics and prank calls. How you'd call me while I'm sleeping and laugh at my ramblings. How you'd call me silly lovey names to make me laugh. How we'd play catching on the beaches, draw hearts on the sand, chase each other with branches, play card games and make fun of the loser. How you'd purposely act PDA when I'm uncomfortable with people around us. How you'd tickle me when you know I hate it. How you're always there when I need it, whether my slippers tore or me going through a rough time. How you'd smile at me when I do stupid things and embarrass myself. So many things. I admit I'm having fun going out but I can't wait for you to be back cause it's not the same without you :( Time is flying by fast, let's hope it goes by faster!

2010-04-26T20:33:00.008+08:00

Happy 2 year 11 months baby!

We might not be able to meet for our anniversary today just like last month but I had alot of fun with you yesterday :) You've been so sweet to me and I am so glad that in two months time, you'll be back! I can't wait.

Things are going so smoothly now, with the burden lifted off our shoulders. From recent happenings I've seen many sides of you that made me realize how much of a good person you are and I'm glad to have you in my life. You're not just a good boyfriend, but a good friend.

It's when you were so respectful, thoughtful and kind to even those who stooped so low and threatened to slap that I realized how much of a good person you are. You were kind to even those who criticized you for god-knows-what, you're a honest friend to even the most fakest I've ever met. I knew you were a true friend when you corrected me when I was wrong for the sake of your friends, I love how fair you are.

If it's love when you're willing to do things even when it hurts you - I know I love you when I was still willing to talk to your friends after everything - and also making sure you still have them around instead of taking you away from them. I want you to be happy.

And those who were your true friends were willing to do the same. You're so precious to me and I don't want anyone to take advantage of that, and I'm glad that those who did will not be doing that anymore. I am happy to have stood up for you, you know I love you =)

"Problems, help your relationship to grow. Don't deny them and run away, have a talk and solve them." - I believe in that. So you talked with me, I talked with them, and now we're all happy :) After keeping mum for so long when there were so many denigrations posted, we finally managed it out and good people always get their way in the end.

I love you for the way you act, your level-headedness, your maturity, your non-biasness and I love your forgiving nature. I love how you decided to take the high road and let go of the petty issues that were brought, when it wasn't worth it. & That's exactly how we complement each other, you're passive and I'm aggressive. :P

I love how you have not only mine but everyone's well-being in mind and heart, and that's what draws me close to you. It's hard to find a guy who treats everyone with good respect, and is willing to correct you and help you become a better person. People somehow can't stop comparing to us and making sure we know of it, but it's okay because we're always gonna be on a higher level of standard when it comes to our relationship. After everything we've been through and seen, I'm glad you're not like others and I'm glad you're exactly the way you are :) A diamond in the midst of stones.

We've gone through so much problems, you've put me through many things and I'm glad you've changed and I've changed, and through these problems we grew - to be better people.

And what's a relationship if you don't become a better person while you're in it?

It's just 10 more weeks till you're back for good, and I can't wait for it!

Be back soon cause I miss you.

Love, HD :P

PS. Sad to know such bad news but I'm glad I have my boyfriend safe and sound :) In time, people get their karma don't they?

Holidays

2010-04-22T17:19:00.011+08:00

So it's the holidays now for us Year 3 Students,

so what's better than going out and catching up with your loved ones? ;)

Wednesday

Went to Marina Square with my Bestie Boo and Bernard to watch the Date Movie, and it was awesome! It's a comedy starring Tina Fey and Steve Carrell.

I love Tina Fey, she's hilarious! Plus, my favorite idol Leighton Meester had a small role in it. She's gorgeous. We had a good time watching the movie, definitely recommended :)

Oh yes, and we decided to go play in those cute gaming centres again.

Look what I won!? :D

And my bestie Boo won 4 toys! We sure have good luck when we're together ;) Marina Square was very empty, so we decided to walk around, before we left for home. I had fun, lets do it again soon! & The next time, I'm hoping my two other bestfriends Nicole and Zi Xin can make it. I miss them.

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."

Our 2.10, unfortunately, falls on a Monday so he'll be in camp. So we've decided to go out on the weekend :) I can't wait! Time fly faster, will you? I can't wait for his POP!

& Oh yes, I finally gave him his present. He seems to like Casio alot. It's white and blue, not gold though. It looked nice on him. I'm happy :D

Everyone's falling sick nowadays. I caught a flu from Em and then spread it to the whole family. Daddy was hospitalized on Saturday, for just a day, and he's feeling much better now. Now my mum's sick. And I think her body is too weak to handle it, she can't even walk properly. It's scaring me. :(

I hate buying food from outside, especially at hawker centres. I realized yesterday that I don't frequent hawker centres and Fast Food restaurants much, and I had alot of trouble buying food home for the family. Mummy get well soon, please! :(

I need to get a part-time job really fast! With all these outings planned, I really need some cash asap. Anyone willing to spare me some? ;))

2010-04-16T01:04:00.003+08:00

& Now I, Nana, and Vinitha are online posting english translated to tamil words all over Facebook. Corrupted, horrible words. Aww, I love them.

Today is the first day of school in RP, and I was in school even though I don't have school :D A simple meet-up with my gorgeous girls Nana, Nadia, Soniyah and Pavithra. Suprisingly, we didn't take pictures. But we had a lot of fun talking and catching up.

Is it just me, or do I notice that the freshmen are getting more and more rowdy? So many mats and minahs, ah lians and ah bengs, typical indians. I wonder what is to become of RP if this continues. I guess I'm lucky I'm not studying there anymore. Still, I miss RP :(

Friends from IME, on the last day. I'm really going to miss them. The fun, laughter, the insults, the lunch outings to different places, the mean boys, and the girls.. and maybe even being called Minah all the time. :P Really fun and outgoing people. Had a great, great time going out with them after work on the last day, and I hope to keep in touch with them always :) I miss them already. More pictures in Facebook!

My hair looks funny short, but I like it. Great change, very suitable for the terrible weather. When am I going to see a nice, windy day in singapore? :(

2010-04-12T14:19:00.003+08:00

Start aftresh. Deleted my old archives for a reason I can't say for now. Be back soon!

A simple weekend

2010-04-12T09:21:00.004+08:00

A simple weekend

2010-04-12T09:21:00.003+08:00

2010-04-09T10:45:00.006+08:00

I moved back to blogger, and I managed to export all my wordpress posts here :D I'll keep my wordpress and update it once in awhile, with private posts most probably :) I'm bored at work so I'm blogging.

I cut my hair! So short now. :( Stupid bitch hairdresser. Well actually she was very nice. Will post pictures soon!

Emmy, be my penguin?

lololol.

Omg, I miss you so much :(

I have such cute cute cute friends!

I love them.

8 more days

2010-04-06T06:24:00.005+08:00

& It's 8 more days till everything is over. And I'm done with my work already, I'm just left with the report. :D

So I'm going deaf in one ear currently, due to a spreading infection in the sinus, but somehow I'm overly-excited to do my report. My friend was calling me crazy repeatedly because of that, but I can't help it, I just like writing. I really miss writing. :( Even when it was thousands and thousands of words in a scientific report. It's fun!

Hope to get it done by today, so that I can be free for the Kbox trip on friday, and saturday trip to johor, with my new friends from work. I really, really like them :)

& Tomorrow, I SWEAR I'll get my hair done. No more buts! It's been so long since I've been trying to find time to do it, and I'll just have to shove it in tomorrow. A mani-pedi on the way too, I hope? ;) I need it, I'm so embarrassed by my ugly nails :(

I MISS THEM! I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY MISS THEM.

XOXO

Saturday night love

2010-04-04T08:23:00.001+08:00

You would think that Love and I would go out since he's back home again but it's hard when you have other commitments. *sigh* That is the point where I told him I wish you were socially retarded so you have me and noone else, so we can spend time together all the time with no problems :P How selfish of me. But it's an inside joke ;) He's so cute, ahhh.

So while he's hanging out with his friends, I was with mine. I wonder how it'd be like if we bump into each other?

Okay so I decided to camwhore. I hardly take pictures of myself. I don't know why. Most of my girlfriends are camwhores though. Hehe. Stupid IE7 doesn't support Acer's webcam so I had to download some stupid application. But when trying to smile to the webcam I realized I have an one-sided smile! &It looked ugly :( I need to practise smiling. LOL.

Anyways, I went out with my pretty girlfriends! Initially it was supposed to be an outing to Little India for north indian food, 7 of us.

But since some couldn't make it, 4 of us decided to go watch a movie at Northpoint. Might have been a simple affair but I had alot alot of fun!

As usual. ;D

Tamil movie for the first time. Did I mention it runs for 3 hours?! Damn long. But it was nice! We went to pastamania later, and ate like pigs. How are they so skinny, I wonder?!

Hope Karlpana doesn't kill me, she asked me to take a picture of the food and my shaky hands resulted in such a horrible picture :(

We talked about everything we could think of, and bitched, for hours till the restaurant closed. Fun fun fun!

Love you guys <3

Tomorrow is Hair salon day! Nana you better not let me down this time!

XOXO

<3

2010-04-03T08:33:00.002+08:00

So I don't really blog that often, but hey, who has the time to be consistent nowadays!?

LAST SUNDAY.

Egyptian exhibition with the besties was fun, interesting, and beautiful. The mummies, the coffins, the antiques, their lives.. such a beautiful and mystifying culture. I would love to travel to Egypt one day! After the exhibition, the one main thing I learnt was that the egyptians were busy living their lives planning their after-lives. I find it really interesting.

Bernard, our old friend brought up the idea, and we had a good time at town. Ate at Just Asia after the exhibition, free flow of ice cream and drinks! Totally awesome! I wasn't feeling well (as usual), but I couldn't help myself. <333 Who resists ice cream?!

Went to the arcade later, and I fell in love.

With this. THE BUNNY IS SO CUTE! I swear, they put it on display on purpose! All of us (the girls) were squealing at it's cuteness. But I would've never thought I could win it. Especially since I haven't ever played with this machine. But I did! With the help of my friends, we managed to get the bunny and now it's in my posession. Woohoo! Thank you loves! We should do this again soon =D

And from Monday to Wednesday, was shopping days =D Went to town everyday after work to shop till we drop! Nana and I were supposed to get our hair done but the girl is always late! :( Guess I have to stand having ugly hair awhile more.

Annddd, thursday after work went to town with my friends from work. It was.. 7 of us? Some couldn't make it. Had loads of fun at Kenny Rogers while dining. I think we were the noisiest there, I hope people didn't get annoyed. Watched How to train your dragon after!



It was a cartoon movie. And the dragon is so cute! Reminds me of my dog, jacky. & It acts exactly like a dog! It was not too long, the storyline wasn't boring, and it was pretty cute. I liked it. :) It's only 8 more days till my attachment ends, and I'm going to miss all of them.

Today is good friday so love booked out yesterday night =) He had went out with his friends after that and I was pretty sure he'd be late but he was on time. :o Impressive!



At a reflection thingy in a shopping mall. I missed him so much. I might be having fun with friends, family.. but it never feels the same without him. He was really loving and sweet today. Well, he hardly is never. ;) We pretty much were glued together. We are such a PDA couple =S

Everything went perfectly today. But one weird thing happened today. This caucasian dude came up to me and asked me for my autograph. Like.. what?! & He told me I look like Freida Pinto from Slumdog Millionaire. So he needs my autograph.. I was in a huge state of confusion. Then love and him started talking about it and then his wife (who was indian) came and told me the same thing. They got my autograph and left. I was pretty speechless after that.



I look like.. that?! That is definitely too much of a compliment man! Maybe if I was slimmer, had white teeth, and flawless skin, better hair.. you get it. She is so pretty. I think he must've been drunk. HAHAHA. But it was definitely interesting. And he was very friendly. I like friendly people. =) And somehow, I meet a hell lot of them everytime I go out. Life's gooood!

Now love has booked back into camp. He had fever one of the days during camp, and now he has to pay back for it. What the hell!? It's so unfair. He was so upset about it, as he couldn't enjoy the long weekend like the rest. :( I'm sad too. Well, what can we do. I just can't wait for him to be done with it!

XOXO

Monday blues

2010-03-29T17:23:00.001+08:00

Back at work.

Initially, I would've said monday blues, but.. my friends and I are having fun early in the morning so I won't say it :P

We do the silliest things together. At one point I was so bored I decided to download Google Earth and we started looking at all our residential areas through that. So cool! And the morning magic tricks my friend would come around and play, the talking sessions.. I guess it makes me feel better about working here.

Just two more weeks, and it's over. Going out with a group of them to celebrate.

See, this is where the headache starts. I want to meet so many people and they all want to go out on the weekends. Love can only meet me on the weekends. So it clashes. Yesterday was outing with the besties, this weekend is the outing with the girls.. So hard to balance now! &He's facing the same problem. I just hope nothing bad happens. I don't want us to drift apart. :(

I miss you. I hate seeing you only once a week, and just for a few hours. I miss the times we could meet anytime we wanted. I miss how you used to chase me down the hallways of RP, throw my slippers far away and make me suffer, carry me on the escalators, turn up under my block after work and surprise me with chocolates, our silly chats and tic tac toe games on MSN in class, our after school hang-out, those times I would hang out at night with you and the rest and how they started calling me OT (overtime) Girl because I always say I'm doing overtime at work just to spend time with you. How they call you Project boy cause you always lied you're doing project just to meet me. *Heaves a very long, long, deep sigh.* Ah well.

Will update about the outing with besties later! :D

XOXO

3am in the morning

2010-03-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

I am back! I have a silent resolution to blog more often, so I shall (:

It was mummy's birthday! I don't want to upload the rest of the pictures cause she'd kill me. Hehe. But she liked the cake, we went all the way to bugis to buy it for her since she's vegetarian and the cakes are the bomb. I'm glad she liked it! But still need to bring her out on of these days. I love you momma!

I was playing with the crab. They gave the whole piece! I had no heart to eat it :( LOL, so I gave it to love! He had his usual Alfredo.
& He agreed my drink, Hazelnutte, was the bomb :D *slurps!*

Oh, this was at CoffeeClub at IMM. We used to go there everyday last time. Memories. But the service now is not as good anymore. It felt like such a short time, walked around, did some talking, had fun! I missed him the moment he left. Oh, and I bumped into an old friend! Sigh. Can time pass faster? 3 months more till his NS is over. Still have a long way to go.

So messed up. :(

And he dedicated this song to me on FB, so sweet! :')
I think the lyrics can't suit us any better.

Thank you baby :) ILYSM!

And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
And I don't care what they do
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you

XOXO

Gone again

2010-03-22T06:23:00.001+08:00

I was pretty 'emo', while taking the train back home from Pasir Ris. Today was love's book-in day. :( Met in the early afternoon, to spend some time together before he left. He was so sad to leave and I'm.. not good with goodbyes. I never was.

NS seems to be like a period of hell? I think the worst of everything is that you can't see your loved ones much anymore. I know he feels worse than me. I keep having to look at the bright side, to stay calm. It's just four months, not two years. One month is already almost over, just three months more. I have alot of free time to spend at home, organizing my life, meeting up my friends, my family.. and work. Yep.

I just can't wait for this to be over! :(

Went to beach road to get things for camp. Ate at beach road; went to Kallang Riverside Park (or something near to it).

He tanned ALOT. Never knew I could actually be fairer than him. :o I miss him already. Ah well.

I need a hair makeover &I'm starting to like these curls (finally!) Going to get my hair done once my pay day arrives. Not to mention love's belated birthday present. Anddd.. mummy's birthday is coming up! :D I want to bring her out.

No matter what, okay?

Noone can ever replace you.

♥

XOXO

He's back

2010-03-21T01:29:00.001+08:00

Andddddd... he's back ;) Left my workplace promptly at 5.40 only to have to wait there for around an hour for the rain to stop :( Met a friend along the way who brought me to the bus stop, and we took the bus together :) Got wet in the rain. Apart from looking like I just woke up from my grave (because of stress at work), I had to ruin my hair in the rain. Grrreeaatt.

Took the train all the way from Clementi to Pasir Ris, I was an hour late. Met his cousin and friends, and waited for another long hour for him to arrive. I was so famished ;( Later, some left and the rest of us went to eat at Burger King. Then took cab to woodlands, and spent somemore time with him. Did I mention how glad I am to have him back?

& He looks so cute with his haircut! hehe. Really missed him, and I can't wait to go out with him tomorrow.

There's been so many things happening recently, and it made me realize how much I appreciate him, and that he's a dime diamond in the dozen. :) Nowadays, guys my age are so rude, unclassy, annoying, and plain immatured. Or is it just me having to be stuck with the wrong people? Sigh. Oh well, I couldn't care about them less, and..did I mention how glad am I to have him back? *flashes a big big smile*

Oh, I love you :D

XOXO

Party planning

2010-03-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

I'm bored right now so I shall blog ;)

I woke up today morning, feeling a little sad that I have to go to work. The travelling is a killer; I think Ive mentioned it too many times already. But I immediately feel better whenever I see my colleagues (aka fellow attachess from RP) who are really sweet and nice people. They teach me when I don't know how to do certain things, listen to my rants, we talk, laugh and go out together, and they advise me on many things. They even bring me to the labs and teach me practical work, bring me things, when even my supervisor didn't. I am lucky to have such friends :) I think I would've become very depressed and lonely without them. I really appreciate it. It also helps me kill time while waiting for Em to return home. :( I do miss him alot, and I'm glad I have so many people around keeping me occupied.

& I have to admit I've been having alot of fun! :D No lonely days, nothing. Makes things easier for me. I knew this thing would be a breeze :)

Party planning with the girls was fun, stressful, fun..yep. The above girls are the last few to leave RP. Pretty girlfriends! :) Initially, there were 8 of us. 8 people planning?! But hey, we had fun!

This time it's only going to be the 11 of us! Not the previous time where we planned for 40 people. I'm pretty happy about it, it's always fun with just the small bunch of us. (Yes, we consider 11 SMALL) :P We just have a few more things to work out, and we'll be done for the most of it. I can't wait for the Aussie girls to be back! The best part is that it's the 3 days 2 night chalet. Woohoo! Clubbing was initially in the plans but I don't think it'll work out.

There's so many things to do now, I just pray for everything to work out unlike what happened last time.

I hate my hair now, and it doesn't help that I have girlfriends with perfectly luscious, glossy, beautiful hair. But I'll never go back to rebonding again!

So this weekends, I GET TO SEE EM AGAIN <3333333

Wanted to meet on saturday but I am going to the exhibition with the besties that I miss alot. :( Can we meet more often please? most of us live in Yishun! It should be easier than this :(

I can't wait to meet you guys, and I can't wait to meet love.

XOXO

Because we're awesome

2010-03-11T18:02:00.001+08:00

I missed them and I finally got to see them <3

And it was so fun, the word can't even describe it enough. It was a birthday celebration for my two lovely babes Nadia, and Nabisha, and I'm sure they had fun. We're planning another chalet this year (again!:D) but it'll not be on my birthday like last year, it's much earlier.. July :D Can't wait! Meeting up this saturday to plan again! It's becoming a tradition.

So it was Me, Nadia, Nabisha, Nana, Karlpana, Pavithra, Soniyah, and Renukha. Nandhini couldn't make it. :( Wished Revathi and Vinitha were around to join in the fun too. :(

Candid pictures always make me look stupid beyond reason.

I was looking at this picture and I was wondering.. who's the guy standing by the side? Then I remembered it was that idiotic tourist who kept bugging and stalking us throughout the day. Well, though it was annoying we take it as a compliment. HAHA!

He came to us in the afternoon and asked us whether he could take pictures of our PIZZA. We were dumb-founded, but agreed because we're nice people. :) hehe. But I have a feeling he took pictures of us instead, cause the camera was facing more towards our direction. -_- I wonder where the picture is going to end up? He later came back in the night and asked us whether he could get a girlfriend. Pretty straightforward eh? HAHA.

Then my favorite queen bitch Soniyah pointed to a cofeeshop and toilets "You want a girlfriend? Go there, you can find one." &She did that with the bitchiest look on her face possible. He seemed to understand what she indirectly meant, and left immediately with a grim face. We burst out laughing. Somehow, this happens so often to us. Guess cause I have such pretty girlfriends :) It makes the day more interesting, I guess. Guys, guys, guys.

Nadia, how I WISH you were still in yishun. :((

Yes, we had alot of fun fighting and playing games (in an extremely competitive manner, I must say)

As NANA said, the camwhores are caught in action at the back! HAHA! :)

I love these girls.

I hope this saturday would go smoothly, and the July chalet will be a blast! ;) THIS TIME, I'M GOING TO TAKE A VIDEO OF THE DRUNK BITCHES . Memories <3 I hope there won't be drunk guys though.

Randomness. I LOVE THIS PUPPYYY!!!! It's so fucking cute.

This reminds me of bf, he's so cute :P

I miss him. :(

XOXO

Happy birthday, Love

2010-03-04T20:08:00.001+08:00

Today is a very special day for a very special person.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY LOVE!

I hope you have a great year ahead and I hope that every setback and failure only brings out something better for you in life. You are such a sweet, caring, loving, kind-hearted, and lovable person. It is not being in love that makes me happy but it is being in love with YOU that makes me happy. You deserve the best in everything, and I'm sure you'll get it with that good heart of yours. Things are so much better now, and I know it'll only get better and better, now that we've passed the bumpy stages.

You know that with each year I'll only love you more and remember that your best years are still ahead of you and I'll be there for every up down and in between.. and so will all your friends and family :) Because you're worth that much.

I'll get you the birthday present soon okay? I can't wait for you to finish BMT.

I have a surprise for you after ;)

Hoping that your day will be as special as you are.

With love,

Me! :)

2010-03-03T06:41:00.002+08:00

Love.

Where we don't need to talk about anything, and laugh. When we didn't need to boast about our love. When we didn't need to meet, or talk everyday to know what we know. When we didn't need to give up our own social lives to be with each other. When we don't restrict each other so unnecessarily; when we slowly learn to let go and trust the person will come back. When we have our own friends and we respect that. When we don't disrespect them for nothing. When we do what's best for each other, even though it hurts us. When it's not all just about spending money and countless lunch and dinner dates. When it's not sending me everywhere to show me you care. When it's me telling you not to do that, since I wouldn't want to make you tired. When it's screaming on the phone and smiling the moment we meet. Love, when it doesn't turn you into a monster. Where the person makes you someone better, not someone worse. And I'm glad I have that, since I've seen so many opposites. With that thought, goodnight. :)

XOXO

randomness needs no reason

2010-03-02T00:09:00.001+08:00

You are Black Mask. Spiritual and fatalistic, your beliefs, dreams and emotions guide your ambitions. You are cynical and trust very few because you believe superficiality runs the world. This does not prevent you from being superficial to attain your goals. Your mission is to expose the ugliness of attractive people and mar their beauty. When you are angry, you humiliate your enemies in the most merciless way possible and let them destroy themselves through their own shame. Though your life for the most part has been fairly normal, it is marked by a string of significant setbacks harsh enough to force you to completely reinvent yourself as a more socially magnanimous person, but this is merely a facade. You don't know how to be true to yourself and your life is marked by self-hatred, envy, and a constant quest to find yourself. Yet your intelligence and insight, combined with your legendary vindictiveness, is remarkable enough to reach anyone who has wronged you and hurt them very, very badly. Some say you can see the future. Perhaps you can.

"I have no delusions of divinity. We are men, not gods. Man is his own god, his own devil, his own death--we are created in our own image, yet imprisoned by the face we call our own. I will remake the world as I have remade my face, so that they may confront their ugliness and find for themselves what is beautiful." ~Black Mask

This is freaky description of me. But I like how they've put it.
Some parts are true, whereas some, not at all.

Okay I admit it. I'm bloody bored!
First round - watched Devil Wears Prada
Second round - some other movie?
Sigh.

Sad :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

I wish I could adopt all the animals in the world that are suffering!

and the people who abandon pets.. I hope you guys burn in hell!

Oh, and I like this:

We're teenagers. We're still learning. Shit happens. We cheat, we lie, we criticize, we fight over stupid things. We fall in love and end up getting hurt. We bitch, bitch, BITCH. We bitch about bitches being bitches. We party till dawn, we drink till we pass out. We hate people for no reason, we call each other names. We stay up late having deep conversations, or stay up late just to THINK. We go out and have a kick ass time with our friends and THOSE WILL BE THE MEMORIES. One day that's going to all pass. You can waste your time focusing on all the bad things, but one day you're gonna wish you were still a teenager. So make the most of what you have now, forget all the bullshit and drama and LIVE YOUR FUCKING LIFE WITH A SEXY SMILE ON YOUR FACE.

Okay I'll leave now. bye!

2010-03-01T17:47:00.002+08:00

I miss my besties. :(

Boo, ZiXin, Nicky, please meet up soon. Watch Alice In Wonderland together.

1, 2, 3

2010-03-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

Since I have time to blog for once, I shall.

February is almost to an end now so I'm just looking back on how my year has been going.

& It's been going great. Been catching up with old friends, working, spending time with loved ones.

Today is the one day after so long I have time to stay home and rest, and coincedentally an old close friend decided to pop by.

It was fun talking to her. Memories that can never be replaced :)

Have been having fever for 5 days now.

Maybe it's the lack of sleep, the horrible lengthy hours of travelling, the horrible food in NUS?

Didn't want to miss a single day of work though. So just went through hell.

Valentines day was funnnn ;)

I decided to bring Em to Mount Faber.

Well, technically he brought me on his bike.

But I wanted to show him the beautiful place. :D

And he agreed it was nice :)

Though it can't compare to other countries, it's definitely something different.

Place beautiful ain't it? Too bad it was full of people :(

I thought they go visiting for CNY? Was shocked to see many chinese families there on CNY.

Aww well, but we still had fun.

After some time of looking around, we ended up in Henderson Waves.

Been wanting to go there for the longest time now.

Nice View over there. It was just so crowded though, I hated it.

So hard to make him smile properly! Silly boy so cute. Fake smile! :(

When night fell, we made our way to Emerald Lodge for dinner. Bb's treat :D The food was a tad bit expensive but the view and setting was so romantic and pretty. Definitely a must-go for all couples! Can't wait till both of us are working full-time, then we can go on holidays and I can show him all the places I went :D I hope I have a good sense of direction. I'm sure he'll laugh at me when he sees this though :( Back to the topic.

The food was niceeeeeeeee. *drools* We both had pasta. I'm craving for it again. He had All-time Favorite Chicken Pasta, while I had seafood. Mine was really really good. His was too, but he hated it. It tasted like it was tossed with Spinach and Olive Oil (healthy!) and I liked it so I exchanged food with him.

What a nice girlfriend I am *self-praise* :D

Mine! *YUMMY!

His food. :D

We had to rush off due to unfortunate circumstance though, but we'll definitely be visiting soon. :))

Before leaving, we walked around. I like this one above!

Too bad it wouldn't be clear if we took a picture infront of it.

& Oh yes, I went to the toilet before leaving and damn, I love their toilets.

I want mine like that!

The sinks.

The sofa in the toilet and the view outside. The walls are all glass :)

So we left to Vivocity afterwards. Andddddd.. baby fell asleep.

so so so so so cute.

We then left Vivo back to marsiling, and met up his bros.

Sat and drank till.. 3? and made a move. :))

Had fun, abrupt ending, and moving on to next topic.

I love you Emmy! :)

This month was better for us, since school is over we've been meeting so much more often.

Riding around, catching fireworks by the beach, uncountable dinners, and meeting his favorite bros.

Random pictures.

I look like a fat zombie. *cries*

But this picture is cutttttteeeeeeeee! Me like. <3

I like this picture too.

Random meetups with my favorite people :D

I've not been able to meet up with my besties or the girl gang for some time now.

This saturday, can't wait! <3 On the down side, dear love is going into NS this saturday.

*HEART BROKEN*

Abrupt change of topic, again!

So fucking annoying! But entertaining to watch. Thanks to bestie boo who introduced this to me :)) Hehehe.

Ohhh, and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED BROTHER, KIRAN! :D

Him and mummy :)

So what did I get for him on his birthday?

For a little 11 year old boy, he's bloody materialistic. Costed me 120 just for a hocky stick. His $100 shoes I bought, the $100 soccer boots my dad bought, his $100 perfume, his $200 jerseys. May I ask, how come I don't get anything like that from dad? Sucks being the oldest. :(( He's ELEVEN for christ's sake. tsk. I will never understand why boys need such expensive sports equipment!

Baby's birthday is nearing soon :)) I'm going to be so broke.

Reminding me of work. I need to get ready for work tmr, early night to prepare myself for the morning rush. It's all the way at Clementi. And I swear, the people are so fucking rude there. Maybe it is the morning rush to work? I sometimes don't even have to use energy to walk in crowds. They'll just push me along. Fucking hell. And when I asked a lady to stop pushing, she retorted at me, "I'm not pushing, who's pushing?" Bitched with my friend in the bus when she was nearby. And he said loudly "Not pushing? Ya right, I didn't even need to try to get into the bus!" I'm glad I have friends there, keeps me sane. And they've been very caring too. Teaching me all the electronics topics when I have no clue on it, helping me etc. The people there are very nice as well. Makes me feel better about it :) So there goes my crazy long post.

BYE !

Hello

2010-02-26T00:15:00.001+08:00

Hello.

*Sweeping off the dust accumulating on blog*

By right, I should be able to update often since I'm using my laptop everyday for the past two weeks now.

I'm currently at my workplace, A*Star. Freezing.. to death, I would say.

But boredom is driving me to death faster.

Not that I have nothing to do; I have too many things to do.

But it's very difficult, and dry. sigh.

Can't wait to start working in the labs more often.

The place is great, met many new friends, all wonderful.

2 girls, 18 guys on attachment from RP. whoa.

but it's been fun. Sitting with 6 of the guys right now, doing work and chatting.

Feel like sleeping.

GTG now.

Will update on everything.. eventually.

XOXO

PLANS

2010-02-13T21:51:00.001+08:00

I have a plan.

A plan for you and me ;D

I'm so excited for it.

Wooooooohoooooo!

Can't wait can't wait can't wait!

I WANT

2010-02-12T19:59:00.002+08:00

I want I want I want I want!

I can't even imagine how much will all these cost in total. Sighhhhhhhhh :(

ONE DAY, ONE DAY!

I miss using Kerastase series, the only thing that worked so well on my horrible hair.

Today was shopping with Nana day. The best person to shop with. Cause our taste is alike ;D

Pretty girl.

I'm not done with shopping. which girl ever is? I want more, MORE! :D

Going to town on a friday night is a bad idea.

I hate hate hate crowds!! NO MORE I TELL YOU!

Atleast I got to buy cute stuff. :P

I hate cotton on sizes. Size XS either fits, or NOT.

Size S is too big.

Either that or

Size S is too small,

Size M is too big.

Size XS itself too big.

CAN DIE AHHH!

XOXO

It's over

2010-02-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

TODAY MARKS THE FIRST DAY OF HOLIDAY.

Yes! Happy happy.

No more late nights of studying, no more stress, nothing! Well, until next week that is. :(

So what have I been doing the past few days?!

MONDAY.

First UT. Biomaterials. Tough as ever. Praying hard everything goes will ell.

& 8.30am? Seriously, so early for what :( Lucky I don't live so far.

After UT, met love, to study at MAC. In the end, we discussed 'our plan'. hehehe.

Booked everything alr, but we just cancelled it. Got too many commitments here to put back :(

Another time then? After that, we were going to go out, but changed our minds and met his 'bros' instead. :P hehehe

Ate, hang out, and went gaming. Well, I studied while they gamed.

But L4D2 seems so tempting, got so distracted :P

& I owe so much to them, they helped me carry my two laptops everywhere :( Feel so bad and sucky.

Em sent me home before going back home. Felt so bad. No more k? I don't like.

I give more than I take and I prefer it that way :) I'm not like other girls :P

*cheyyy*

TUESDAY

Go home and sleep day. 8.30am UT, couldn't wake up for it!

Went home so late the night before :( Luckily, UT was good. Got home and rested.

Then it was back to studying till.. 3am?

Sigh. Thinking about it, it was such a nightmare.

WEDNESDAY

UT at 8.30, AGAIN . And another UT at 2pm.

So much time in between -_- So met up love after UT, and waited for Audi to reach RP.

Ate at Reel Room, even he says the food is good.

We planned to buy Escargot (THEY HAVE THAT IN RP WTF?!)

But it was all out (even bigger wtf here) Next time then?

Ain joined us later, had alot of fun with them. All departed around 2, since I had UT .

After UT go home and voila! This was the last day ever going to school for educational purposes.

Basically, my last day :) Happyy! But will be going back often, I'm sure of it.

THURSDAY

I don't want to go anywhere. I'm too tired. Time to finish up all my 'things to do'

So many things delayed.

**********

And now, after all the exams, I feel super fugly. I get super whiny when I feel this way. :(

But I have my reasons okay! My nails are turning YELLOW. My hair is frizzy and half curly- half straight.

I'm breaking out, my face is like a grease bucket. My feet is in need of a pedicure, so dry.

My eyebrows is meant for Freddy Flintstones.

My eyes are horribly RED with the ugliest eyebags, because of the over-use of lens and no sleep.

& I overate because of stress. Seriously, I've been eating ALOT.

Now i'm more bloated than ever. Time to eat healthy and properly.

Fuglier than ever :(

**********

HOROSCOPE:

''Ammala dear, as busy as you are right now - it's a good idea to make that extra

time available for the people in life who mean the most.''

Who knew they could be so accurate at time? Gotta listen to this one. :)

XOXO

Love love.

2010-02-06T04:55:00.001+08:00

Hello there!

Using my new laptop's webcam. The webcam is the best part for vain girls like me :P So look forward to seeing all my girlfriends taking pictures with me in my posts. yay us! hehe.

My hand phone is not in working condition so I've not been able to take nice pictures. At least now I have this :) I used to complain to Em about how we don't take much pictures anymore. But he'd say "I don't need pictures, memories with you will always stay in my heart". Ain't he just the sweetest?

I'm using my mummy's handphone now and the camera sucks. Example below.

Horrible quality.

Daddy always used to buy her nice phones. But she asked my dad not to buy her such phones, she wanted a simple one. Would any girl in this generation will ever do that? Definitely not me :X She's so considerate and sweet :)

Our new hangout, The reel room, the new cafe in RP's library. It has nice food, nice ambiance, and nice service. The hot chocolate (2nd picture) was sooo good, and love's Double Cappuccino was very bitter. I made him drink it for a caffeine boost, he was so tired and sleepy. Poor boy. Well after next week, it's over for good. :)

I'm going to miss everyone; so many memories I'll be leaving behind. But I know I'll visit frequently since I still have friends over there. I can't believe we'll now be the Alumni group. It's scary how time flies past so fast! So I keep telling myself that it's just one more week, so I'll study as much as I can and give my best. No regrets :) I hope to keep in contact with all of my friends after that, with all the dinners talked about.

& After that, I and Em might be going for a short holiday, before he commits to RSAF and I commit to A*Star.

This past few weeks mixed with work, school, laptop, sickness, and family has been stressful. I can't wait to see the end of it. Soon =) After that, it'll be time for me to meet up all the people who I've been neglecting. I miss them a lot.

I can't imagine how this year is going to go. I'm planning things out for the whole year in advance, so that I can fit in my overseas trips accordingly. I don't want to make poor dad cancel them all :( & I really, really want to visit my beloved beloved Saradha love. I miss her so much!

There's so many things I would like to rant about, but I can't right now. I just hate this certain decision I made last month on something and it's bugging me a hell lot nowadays. I keep saying I want to leave it but I don't know how to go by it. Sigh. Whatever it is, I'm just looking at the benefits that comes along with it, so that I won't stress out too much. :(

Abrupt change of topic. Can't wait for my salary and $100 dollar shopping voucher from CO. Yay! I'm broke and feel the urge for shopping.

It's time for me to get back to studying. Pulling another all nighter? And maybe web-camming through the night with a certain someone :D

XOXO

2010-02-03T23:22:00.002+08:00

Chanel is love.

Love is chanel.

Every girl is a Chanel Whore <3

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

It's baby's FYP today, and I'm glad all his hard work will be finally paying off.

Then Wednesdays shall be our outing days again! :D

It's just a few more days to exams, I need to go to the library to collect all the books I've reserved. Internet is such a horrible way to study, seriously. I can't wait to get out of RP's PBL system. But I have to say, it made me a very independent learner :)

I don't like it when outsiders say things about RP, as if they've gone through it's system before. I think it's best to put yourself in our shoes before you judge. That is, if you have the brains to have even thought of that in the first place.

This year, I'm 20. no more 'teen' at the back. ooh.

Mummy still treats me like a child though. But I don't mind, hehehe.

Speaking of that, someone's birthday is coming up.. :D

NADIA! I love you and I miss you!

We're all growing old babe! haha. Will never forget the young and silly times though.

Going to meet love now.

Daddy got me a new laptop. Still using my old one right now though.

Don't know how to go by configuring it. I know love would do it for me, like he does everything for me, but I don't want to have him doing everything for me. Got to be independent :P

XOXO

dream

2010-01-31T22:30:00.001+08:00

Just as I blog about the three assholes, I end up dreaming about them. WTF!

In the end, I have to do what I've been doing for all these years.

Act like it never happened. Sigh.

But I told myself, and my loved ones, if it happens once more, and if they tell them about it, I'll react. I can't go on like this anymore.

What I will appreciate is that the ones close to me will never do such things to me :)

Work later, and I really don't want to go.

rahhhhhhh.

XOXO

family?

2010-01-31T06:27:00.001+08:00

I have the urge to blog,

I have so many things I'd like to say but I don't know where to start.

So many mixed feelings.

I'm anxious, confused, sad, happy, excited, annoyed, angry.. you name it.

I miss love already. It feels like forever everytime I can't see him.

I'm annoyed for many things.

The reason why I'm in wordpress - so that noone can see my private posts except the ones I give my password to.

So many nosy people in my life, somehow, whether they're close to me or not, who are just trying their best to find out everything about me so that they can use it against me. I mean how fucking childish can you guys get? Everyone has problems. I have my good times, I have my bad times. Who are you to throw opinions at me? Everyone judges, I understand that. Everyone gossips, I understand that. But you have absolutely no fucking right to publicize shit about me, or use anything against me, or talk bad about me to my own loved ones . What the hell are you trying to prove? The moment you come over here just to look at my problems, whether it is a relationship or family problem etc, you use it somehow to make it look as if you guys are better than me. You know what that shows? Your insecurities. Stop trying so hard to make yourself look better than me, you never will be able to. We have our own lives. We all have opinions. You have opinions about me, that you love to publicize. If I were to cut to the chase and do the same? Would you really want me to open my mouth? I'm not really nice when I do, trust me. That's why I keep quiet most of the time. Everything done till now is just a scratch on the surface. Honestly, till now, I'm just keeping things to myself.

I'm trying so hard to keep mum. we're all growing older.. but I guess some people will stay the same. You guys are a bunch of retarded fools, you're coming here reading everything off, getting worked up about it, and talking about it. Well here's a message to you, you and YOU, fuck you. I guess your mother never taught you manners. Are you that lifeless? The moment I publish something, I definitely will get a response. The moment I say something, I get some rebuttal back. Don't act like you have no clue what I'm talking about, you. Stop acting like a victim, and fess up. What's your age? Matured? You? HAHA! Well you have shown how matured you are already. We all have opinions on you that won't change. So just fuck off. If you're trying to bring me down, you can go on and spit on your own face cause you're not been able to. You're just ANNOYING ME CAUSE I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY DARE TO TALK ABOUT ME SO PUBLICLY. Watch your back, you lifeless whores. I'm growing impatient, and I tend to be very patient with idiots.

Don't tell me you love me, cause I fucking hate you and I swear I'll spit it on your face.

You know what I think of you people?

The epitome of pathetic.

2010-01-31T00:10:00.001+08:00

Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person ; wait for the person who will be your best friend , the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the one who will tries to make you smile on your worst days; the person who wants to show you off to world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. And most of all, wait for the person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong.

:)

2010-01-29T05:43:00.002+08:00

Whoa, things are going so fast right now.

I'm trying really hard to slow things down, and finally, it is.

I can't wait for the next few weeks to be over, and I'm done with RP =D

Happy, yet sad.

I have so many things to update on, but I've got no time, and no pictures!

& I hate updating with plain words.

Boyfriend is as busy as ever, but I understand :)

Working every day, he's not like the rest of us and I've never seen someone as hardworking as him. He works everyday till night and full-time on weekends, and can wake up for school in the morning and go ace his classes and FYP. :D

Till now, he doesn’t really skip classes.

It's just a few more weeks.. and then it's over.

I can't wait! I hope he'll listen to our rants, (even his family and best friend don't like how his job is taking up his life), and I hope he'll quit soon.

No matter how little we may talk, or how little we may spend time,

You know in the long run, you’ll always have me (:

& In the end, what matters is the life we build.

Besides, I’d rather not be a couple who are too dependent on each other.

It’s very hard when times like this come along and I guess I’ve learnt it now.

And it's funny how so many people just can't take their eyes of you and me together :)

*******

I was talking to my dearest mummy.

Things are changing alot, and everything is getting better.

I'm just glad for everything.

Dad wants me to go get a driving license and he'll get me a car.

So cute. Should I?

******

XOXO.

TOTALLY RANDOM :)

2010-01-24T08:22:00.001+08:00

My thoughts.

LOVE.

Love isn’t an act, it’s a whole life. It’s staying with her now because she needs you; it’s knowing you and she will still care about each other when sex and daydreams, fights and futures— when all that’s on the shelf and done with. Love—why, I’ll tell you what love is: it’s you at seventy-five and her at seventy-one, each of you listening for the other’s step in the next room each afraid that a sudden silence, a sudden cry, could mean a lifetime’s talk is over.

***

ANGER.

***

Sadness.

***

Smile :)

Just plain weird.

ermm.. scary? cute uh!

Bye :)

2010-01-23T09:16:00.001+08:00

It was a good time today,

and we've been able to make time for each other more often now :)

Poor kid was so tired, but he stayed all the way with me,

even though I knew he could just sleep standing up. HAHA!

I'm glad that no matter what happens,

things never ever change between us.

He can't stop poking and tickling me,

I see so many people glaring at us cause we're giggling and screaming.

hehehe.

We do such stupid things together. ;D

Some problems have arised, and I guess it was about time.

We have talked about it many times before I guess,

and I'm glad that no matter what's going to happen,

he finally managed to stand up for himself and get what he wanted.

I'm glad, cause he's finally at peace.

& Whatever's been talked shall stay between us, right love?

I'm glad that no matter what we always end up agreeing with each other on everything.

He's been advising me, and in the most cutest way too,

I can't help but smile and nod.

He's told me some things that has saddened me.

&I guess that, I shall deal with soon.

I've told him many things, and well,

we know each other most as compared,

so well, no judgment needed :)

Cause baby,

I'm the girl you say that can predict you perfectly,

you don't need to tell me anything

I know what you're doing :)

*****

The school and work balance is getting easier,

I just have to start taking my medicines often,

and stop drinking so much cold drinks.

even my friends are scolding me :(

***

A few days ago.

So everything's been fine except that

the two girls have left for Aussie today,

and I couldn't go to see them cause of work :(

AS USUAL. work work work.

Well I'll see them in six months time, I hope :D

I miss many people.

After exams, I shall plan!

XOXO

2010-01-19T21:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FAVORITE THREE GIRLS!

all born on the same day, which is today :D

I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO MUCH!!

My sisters! :)

2010-01-19T20:26:00.001+08:00

Ever since Revathi and Vinitha came bck to SG,

it has been great fun.

I love that above picture! It has every one of us in it.

This friday they're leaving and I soo don't want them to leave :(

Why is everyone that I want around leaving?!

2010-01-19T07:02:00.002+08:00

I'm happy that I'm sick,

if not I would've collapsed over-working myself.

I guess this is the transition stage.

Now that daddy hardly wants to support us anymore,

we have to work for it ourselves.

I'm growing broke now, but atleast I managed to buy my mum and brother what they needed.

I don't think my dad will ever pay me back, I just have to get used to it.

This year is definitely going to be a tough one, but I know that I can make it through, I'm sure of it.

This past few days, I have been feeling very uneasy.

I'm so scared. I hope what I predict doesn't come true.

******

XOXO

2010-01-19T03:14:00.001+08:00

So goodbye to

my old blog

Say hello to wordpress. arghghgh!

FRIDAY NIGHT

Booked hotel rooms with the girls. Went there right after work, I was so fucking tired.

I had not slept properly the whole week, late night stay-overs and talks with saru, kalai, nana and the rest.

Went to the hotel after work to find out that everything had gotten wild and out-of-hand ;D

But it was fun and memorable as always. :)

Bf wasn't very happy with me but you know you love me! :D

I have not seen Em for a full week, as usual. It's getting so hard for us.

I miss you.

On two days MC now, fell ill after everything.

Cotton On is driving me nuts somehow.

I miss saradha and kalai alot, I really hope they're doing okay.

Saru, I'm glad that you came back, and I'm glad I got to spend lots of time with you. Not enough, but there will be lots more to come, definitely. I hope you're doing okay. :( I really miss you!

I've no time for blogging nowadays, and even though now I have the time,

I'm too dizzy and high on drugs to say much.

Doctor says I might have H1N1?

XOXO

2010-01-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

Random pictures at two different places

So far, 2010 has been awesome.

Everything has been going on just perfect.
The shisha outing was great, staying over at Saru's place was great,
I and Em are great..
everything's perfect.
Perfffect, I can't stress it enough.

But I still feel quite lost.

Sooo.. cotton on wants to keep me and get a contract on me but what if I can't?

Can't obviously choose cotton on over A*Star can I.

Ahh well.

Meeting 5 awesome people tmr. Can't wait!

Yesterday I got Em to meet me for the whole evening, and it felt nice to go out again.

It's been so long.

***

I'm going to move to livejournal soon,

I just need time to do it!

It's so hard to get used to.

Work was okay today,

met so many stupid mat-reps and I hate walking around J8 now.

Urghgh! The girls now end up packing food to the storeroom to eat.

Bought so many things today,
mostly for Emmy, S, and Mummy@ Novena.

I had fun but I'm having so much body aches now,
I should get some rest... eventually.

XOXO

x

2010-01-07T14:30:00.002+08:00

Meeting Besties tmr,The girlfriends for shisha on Saturday,
and Saru and gang on sunday.
I need sleep. Seriously.
But I love my life :)

Love, me! :)

2010-01-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

Waited for over 1 hour just to see Raju for less than 5 minutes. :(

Sigh.

It's really hard to see him nowadays, our schedules are always clashing.

I remember him and his old haircut.

My gosh, he's changed so much so fast >.<

Next week is the week I'll be able to go out with him,

so I hope everything goes well so that my schedule doesn't clash with him again :(

During the holidays (3 weeks?), I only saw him around 5-6 times?

That includes when we went out with other friends.

Mostly less than 5 hours. I need more okay!

I miss you. urgh.

But this way, NS is going to be a breeze for me.

******

My holidays were fun.

I was tired from working but I still had fun.

Went out with friends, made new friends, out with family, cousins..many.

Finally got to catch up with my besties recently.

I'm glad that they finally were all free at once!

My favorite three girls. It's been 7 years? some even more ;D

Marcus! Always bullying girls.

Or getting bullied by them :P

hehe.

As you can see I need to do something about my hair, it looks horrible. sigh.

So far the past few days I've been spending my time at Saru's place with the twins, cousins, friends.

Yesterday practically everyone was there, it was nice.

I really hope Saradha and Grandma recover soon, I'm really really worried about them.

Dear girl doesn't want to take her medicine properly,

and dear grandma stubbornly wants to go back to work when she can't even walk properly!

I have really strong-willed women in my family :)

hehe.

I hope they're okay.

School has started & I feel happy going to school more than going to work.

I have my reasons.

It's only been the first few days of the new year and I've lost a few items -_-

Stupid Cotton On shorts has pathetic pockets. rahhh!

I have exams tomorrow so I gotta go study.

Looking forward to the weekend's sheesha outing with my friends,

and monday outing with Em.

Monday would be an extra special day as Daddy's coming home.. yay!

Missed him.

XOXO

2010-01-01T13:03:00.002+08:00

Hehehe.

On New Years' Eve to New Years'.

I and Saru had been sharing our woes together.

Till 2am. No joke!

When the clock struck 12,

at Saru's house

everyone was walking around in circles

It was my grandma's birthday.

Uncle was watching Hellboy.

They were all screaming on the phone to me.

Angel kitty was suddenly on her back playing and tearing up the curtains.

Romeo kitty was ignoring everyone and sleeping on the sofa.

Hehehe.

At my house,

My dad was high on alcohol and was dancing,

only to get attacked by Jacky my dog.

He then ended up sleeping on the sofa, doing a 'Mahatma Ghandi' pose.

Mummy and Kiran was going around hugging everyone.

We said Happy New Year to Jacky and he growled at us.

Nana my dear sister was on the train on her way home

when everyone screamed "Happy new year!" and fell on the floor.

We have weird families and weird experiences ;D

No wonder we're related.

Yay us!

******

I shall address this issue directly, for once.

For 10 days. Here at Cape Town.

I hope you'll be fine.

I will miss you. :(

& I hate how we have grown apart.

& how you have no time for us anymore.

Daddy.

I wish we could come with you.

******

& This is where we might be going, on the June holidays.

Brisbane, Australia.

I miss Aussie.

I miss all the times I spent with my best friend & the rest there :D

I can't wait!!

We were supposed to migrate there but

I'll miss Em too much. hehe.

This 7th I'm getting my pay

& I can't wait ;D

much love.

xoxo

2009-12-31T22:39:00.002+08:00

The BBQ party - these are just the girls.

Guys were not invited to take pictures :P

On the way there with my sexy driver ;)

This picture nice righttttttt!

The cutie pie I love love love!

Renu and Nana and Me put up the six man tent ourselves ;D

Cook of the day!

Four babes :)

2009 is a year I'll never forget.

I met many new people, reconciled with others,

Had ALOT & ALOT of fun

& also cried like I never did before.

The people who made my year are below :)

FAMILY

Father, Mother, Sithi, Kiran, Nana, Saradha, Nicky, Sailu.

I love these pictures.

MY FRIENDS

Too many to name sorry. Lol.

MY LOVE

Today, the whole day,

I had been upset about reliving the bad memories of the year 2009.

But when I start putting the pictures up of all the people that matter to me..

I realize that I am blessed to have what I have,

I am happy.

This year, I lost someone very important to me.

I feel there's so much to say about it and yet, nothing to say at all.

She was one of the most important, and now that she's not physically here anymore..

Nobody can understand the feeling unless they themselves have lost someone special in life.

Memories that can never be replaced.

The next year would be a year without her around, and it's going to be hard.

I'm not ready for it.

But we will make it through.

I have many resolutions for the next year.

Many hard ones.

But I just know I can get it done :)

I have many, many things planned and squeezed in for new year. Can't wait!

And at the same time, I'm upset as we're sending daddy overseas for work :(

I pray for his safety.

I gotta get going now,

many things to do :D

Much love!